I’ve been wrestling with a think piece that I was looking forward to submitting for publishing. I had a topic I was feeling passionate about and started drafting with verve. The editor was generous and encouraging and prodded me to add more specifics and detail my proposed outcomes. I thought I was doing well. I rethought several elements, dug a little deeper into the research. At some point in the wee hours of the morning I decided that I need to start over.
I realized that in my effort to write to impress, I had lost sight of my real purpose. Everything got very foggy and dense. I found less and less joy in the project. Now I see that what I was writing was and is important but not from the vantage point I was using. Turns out my angle was too wide, my premise too vague, my intentions far too broad. So I need to let the whole thing go and start over. Maybe even walk away from the topic. I’ve only recently learned that this, too, is an option.
When I look at my various blogging accounts, I occasionally peek at the draft/published ratio. There are many many unfinished and reconsidered drafts in my folders. Those are not failures, those are fits and starts, ideas waiting for their right moment. Although I got pretty far down the road with this particular draft and enjoyed the support of an editor, I’m learning that I have choices and to pass is one of them.
The right idea is always close. If I can settle my brain and let the idea find me, I’ll be just fine.